Because every year on our birthdays we would begin the day the same way. The one who was not having a birthday would ask the other, "How shall we celebrate your birthday?"
And we would then explore increasingly elaborate ideas -- go out to dinner, go to a movie, go to a Broadway show, book a cruise, go to Mexico, go to Italy.
But we each knew what we would end up doing -- having dinner together here at home. In the garden usually on his April birthday, in front of the fireplace on my December birthday.
|His birthday dinner in the garden 2015|
|Daisy wishing her daddy happy birthday in 2015|
I so miss his wit, his observations on the day's happenings. He was generally kinder than I am, but then, a lot of people are. Conversations with him were always interesting, challenging, and just plain fun. He taught me so much, and stretched my world view in so many ways. He was so widely read -- and I swear, he retained it all.
He couldn't remember to pick up the stuff I asked him to get at the grocery store, but he could remember something he'd read ten years ago in a Nikos Kazantzakis book.
A thousand times a week I think, "I have to tell him about . . ." And then reality intrudes.
I so miss our conversations, my love. I know you are probably having a wonderful time tracking down all the writers whose work you loved, but I wish you were still here. Things are more than a little bleak without you.
You would have been 81 years old on Monday, but those numbers truly mean so little when I think of you. Your vibrant spirit, your wit, your charm -- they were ageless.
So on Monday, I set up a gofundme account, the Gayland Pool Memorial Outreach Fund to raise $10,000 to carry on the ministries you were so passionate about through the work of the congregation at St. Luke in the Meadow Episcopal Church. We've raised nearly $3,000 of it so far.
It's helping me get from one day to the next. Because it's damn hard.
I miss you so, my love. So much.
So sorry for the painful silence your heart must be hearing.
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